smile like you mean it. <3

Training today. well, wasn't as bad as i thought, but it was as bad as ever. hurrhurr. i'm contradicting myself. tomorrow is gona be a borrrring day in school, no one wna pon with me. :( and i'm going to school just for the sake of eating lunch later. :) and my attire for tomorrow, school uniform. HAHA.

And today, in my whole primary and secondary school life, i experienced the most boring class ever. it was for a long two periods and i fell alsleep peacefully. :D she was talking about some crap, about character building. and when she was talking about respect, both of us were sleeping. hahaha. :P but when i peeked abit to hear if she was talking any sense, she actually did. some meaningful ones. :)

shoutouts :

Bestie : :)

Homer Simpson : farhanah! linked you already! :) see you on Saturday tooooo.

I got it from here;
so stop pestering.

School starts this week. man, i'm already missing the holidays. :'(

First week is always a killer. :l trainings are gona be four times a week now, so that means i'll be more occupied than usual. :( its not the outside trainings that are making me tired, its when she starts PMS - ing and then we'll all suffer. that's how we all suffered during Tuesday training. the worst of the worst. =X

But the good thing is (look on the bright side!), that we have two school holidays for the next two weeks. :) then i can sleep longer. my, don't i sound pathetic. haha. school on Friday is gona suck, so thinking of ponning now.

Had u17 training today, and it was quite okay. but was tired out by yesterday's school training. :l and come to think of it, there's school training again tomorrow! gosh how am i ever gona get enough rest. it really sucks please, not getting enough rest. think i'll fall sick soon too because i stood under the rain for 45 minutes just to hail a taxi.

Changed seats in class and now i'm sitting right at the back at the corner with Shalom. boy, hope i can comcentrate throughout the year. needs discipline though, which i might even have any. :P

How i wish i could turn back time.

HAPPY BITHDAY BESTIE. :D

I'm so glad that my bestie has finally turned 15 while i'm still waiting for mine. :(

Shoutout to Hui Shian :

Hey dear! it was great going out with you on Monday and sure! we'll get you yuor pencilcase asap okays? we went through alot together, before getting this close. so i gotta tell you just how much i really treasure this friendship we have between us, and i hope it continues for as long as i live. :) thank God for putting you into my life and adding so much smiles and laughter when i was down. :D wouldn't know how my life would be without you. so now i'm proud to tell myself that i've really made a good choice. :)) loveyou lorryloads and i'll always be here for you no matter what. =D

i'll do whatever it takes;
to touch the stars.

BACK. :)

Went to Batam today, one day trip. :D glad it was, cos it wasn't as fun as i thought. wasn't feeling too good in the morning. Shopping was quite pathetic, didn't expect it to be like that. haha, but stuff there was cheap. bought some, but most of them were like foodstuff. haha. boy aren't we like pigs. i say, lunch was the best part of the trip. we sat at the same table as the Korean guys. :) no they are old guys. haha. they brought their own seasoning, and they didn't seem to know what seafood we were eating. i think they only enjoyed the snails. Aha, and i tried the local food they brought. :'( sorry but it wasn't that appetising. haha and they were looking at me when i was eating the coconut. they were like 'nice?' then i said 'yes!' then they tried. haha. some liked it while some pretended too. i could see. haha.

I miss all of you guys! :(
-points to the links. -->

Some things have happened while i was away and sad to say, it was really disappointing. never really expected it though.

Why cant my wish ever come true?
RAHHS.

And my girlfriend loves me.

So i'm back and i'm aching all over. backache, neckaches, all the aches that you can think of. and today's weather is so fucking hot! :l damn walking under the sun and finding the bus to saints. damn funny okay. broke a record of wearing our shoes within one minute while waiting for the mrt because of we ( Jodine and i ), the lost Singaporeans in Singapore got lost and couldn't find our way. HAHA. lucky we made it in time for training. but during training, i had bad cramps which made me sick. lucky the main focus was on the attackers. stayed on to watch games that were going on till about at night and oh oh ohh! we saw the beautiful sunset while we were on our way back from buying food! :D it was a combination of orange and blue! No phone camera cannot take picture so only Jodine took. :( nevermind can always take her phone and look at it. :D yes and the way she pronounces : 'don't stressss me' while finding seats was damn funny because i was giving her pressure to find seats to settle down. HAHA.

And Noelle! stop it ah! wait till school reopens. haha.

Can't help it, i'm missing all my friends So much right now. :'(

Tomorrow is a boring day. CIP in the morning. god how will i ever wake up. and think we'll be having tuition in the afternoon which i have to complete six exercises all over again and i haven't started on it yet tell me am i so smart thank you and have to finish ALL my homework which is like i'll take forever to do it because of last minute holiday and please tell me that i'm not dead though i know i am just console me thank you. :)

PS: Help Jodine! circular measurements! :l

HOLIDAYS ARE ENDINGGGG.
SHUCKS.

Live in reality please.

Yes! Initial D rocks! :D oh please the guys are damn hot! haha. chinese guys. a really great show. full of laughter. :) i like. went to watch it last night with Celeste. gosh am i going to catch it again.

Have training later. good luck to me. :( but i'm going to meet Jodine first to submit her dsa form at SAJC and eat meatballs! :D till then, tata! :)

PLEASE ADD COMMENTS ON MY EVERY POST! :D

( someone wanted me to do this because i don't have a tag board! :P )

I wanna be inside your heaven.

Game and training today. another tiring day. but nevermind, i'm used to it. :) positive thinking eh. firstly, school training wasn't really much of a killer! it was horrendous! :l did the same drill as the previous but she had added on some stuff. kinda tiring, but this time we were smarter. ;) heheh. no, not cheating :P

Had a game after that, against lab10. we lost, was kind of expected actually. lost by thirteen goals. but we all played well, displayed really good fighting spirit again. :) a really good game. the WA was damnit fast! :l gosh almost died catching up with her. haha. everyone improved from the previous game, and we had only 10 players today. next game against SRC, which will be about two weeks later. our last game. haha. and my stupid knee was hurting, guess i overstrained it.

Went to watch NSL on Saturday. good game, but we weren't really watching. :l Celeste, Reena and i were laughing and playing like mad. imitating people and laughing the asses off after that. :) was really great. it will be a long time before three of us would go crazy altogether again. :) so many people were present, including prople i don't wna meeeeet.

Having tuition tomorrow again. haven't finished the homework he gave us. man if i knew math was this difficult i would be like failing it very badly. :( oh fuck. and holiday homewrok is nowhere near done. =X

No, not another one.

I MISS MAH BESTIE ALOT. :(

Hoping for the impossible;
nothing is impossible.

Shall talk about ytd. ah yes, school training was a killer. the warm - up. run like its never gona end and then skip while your partner runs. i seriously would rather do the ball chasing. so much more umtiring and fun. :S guess she'll just increase the toughness level for each training. just relieved that Monday would be the last training for the June holidays.

But she's so unreasonable. a bitch. can't she like just understand human nature? would one rather take a long bus trip or take a ride from someone who offers you and is going to the same destination? logic please. then anyhow scold us. make us run so much and of cos we stink then scold us when we went to change. mad i tell you. :l

had a game against Extremes last night. we lost. :( 40 - 44. but nevermind, we all played really well. :) pet, reena, nat and the others were superb. great job there guys! :) its already caonsidered good, because we showed great fighting spirit. :) dunno how they last for such a long and tiring game. i played for like two quarters and i'm like practically dying on court. maybe because of training in the afternoon. next game on Monday against lab10. and talking about the skirts, everyone looked okay. seriously. nothing extraordinary. maybe just a few exceptions. heheh. =P

Today had tuition in the morning. was like a walking zombie. couldn't digest anything. all i know was that he was giving us long talks and that made me think a little. hmmm. and heard from beitris that they had made attempts to shout my name at the top of their voices somewhere near my house after their CIP from Kellock. not the whole estate knows my name. haha i'm famous!

Gosh damn pissed. :l

Life is full of choices;
indeed.

RAHHS. in a bad mood. not that i'm never in one, this one's really bad. don't ask why, or you'll get it straight into your face i swear. pardon me but yea.. who wouldn't get upset or angry when you have lost a part of your life and you realise that somebody had stole it and will never return it back to you? F U C K.

- i need my phone! :l

Stayover was fun. :D
Ate and slept like a pig. haha but sure was shiok eh. ;) ate prata, lagsana, instant noodles, chocolate teddy biscuits, chocolates and drank a bottle of blackcurrant hooch! ahh my mouth is water - ing! xP did homework ( so guai right! ) , played mastermind, boggle, uno stacko and watched first half of coach carter. damn its a nice show. :) then fell asleep in the morning.

Had training today, and something happened. never ever will i forget today.

150605
when i lost something important. nah, not a person. don't worry, haha. went to play pool later, ate and off for training. the rest, just explaining it makes me wna CRY.

Having training and game tomorrow. game against Extremes. sigh tough match. hope everyone plays well tomorrow, so we won't have much regrets even if we lose. haha. skirts! got them today. lol funniest part was when Reena, Jodine and i were in the toilet trying out the skirts. damn hilarious. Jodine kept practising different poses of how to shoot. should have like took a video of her or something. i'm lucky to have retarded people to cheer me up when i'm feeling the worst. :) and not forgetting avis too! natural joker that brightens up anybody's mood. :D yuppers. gosh wonder how not to humilate myself tomorrow. :l as for school training, i'm dreading it.

Back and wanting more.

Haha. now at Michelle's house. had loads of fun today. in the afternoon, i made Michelle wait for me for about half an hour [or moreeeeee] -> Mich wrote that. haha :P then we all went to eat at Pizza Hut! Miss Champion, Pamela, Celeste, Hui Shian, Ivana, Vickyshit, Michelle and me. gathering gathering. haha. eat until we wanted to die then went to play pool at meridien. lost to Vickyshit and Ivana okay! going to beat them next time we go out! haha. as usual, we made alot of noise by screaming and talking loudly. haha. went to eat dunch / linner at swensens. yummaye! :) ate Chocolate Freckles Peak. haha nice! then now at Michelle's house and she's whining cos she doesn't want to do her Chem homework. haha the purpose of me coming to stay overnight at her house is to do homework! so guai right i know. HAHAH. no comments please! but i think we're gona eat supper later on, prrrrata! :) gona ask Miss Champion later on whether she wants to join us. Jalan Kayu, here we come!

Dear friend is off photocopying my worksheets while i'm sitting here and wondering wat else can i blog while waiting for her to finish photocopying all my worksheets. Aha. :P

I'm hungry already.

This is how my heart breaks;
just like that. <3


Just had training. a phrase to describe it, ' SUCKS PLEASE! '. haha bet everyone would be complaining about it. the worst training so far for the June holidays. :l warm - ups are the worst! i would rather do 10 rounds please! sprint around the courts like idiots and picking up balls. our team lost in the end, nevermind! cos in the end our partners still had to at least one round for us! haha. the last part sucks too! very tiring. sigh one whole day wasted just because of training. woke up late today too, cos of the intense watching of vcds. lol and made Celeste wait so long. haha. =P

Out tomorrow, with Miss Champion and all. gona treat us lunch! whee! :)

Should i go Michelle's house?
-ponders.

Can't be bothered ANYMORE.
liar.

HAPPY BITHDAY EVLIN. :)

Heehee.

When I just thought you were the one;
you told me it was impossible.

Family day today. :D haven't been out with my mum for ages, actually have forgotten how retarded can she get. haha. happiness level up! :) went to the Bird Park today, because of all the free goodies that we could get. :) got a bag, free lunch, Ben and Jerry's ice cream! =D wat more could i ask for? haha little child trapped in a teenager's body. best thing was, my mum won the lucky draw third prize, which consist of the latest portable play station! *faints* damn cool please! so mordern! thought we were like going to lose as we thought, 'Aiya last three prizes surely won't be us one la..' then suddenly, her name got read out! got a shock please! Fortune God decided to make us happy for once. haha.

Tigger decides to get a car wash. :D

Training tomorrow again. and if i can wake up, i'll try to go down for CIP. haha. TRY only, which i doubt so because of the terrible number of hours i'm sleeping during the holidays. gosh. :l

Wait. all i can do is just to wait. i've been waiting for like, let's see, over a year? no answer yet though. as if my mind can see wat you're thinking. CRAP.

You are the otherside of the world to me.

I LIKE TO MOVE IT; MOVE IT. XD

Gave my toe nails a new coat of black polish. :D

The holidays are half gone! gosh, check out how time flies. :l really scary, plus i haven't done any of my holiday homework yet. =X gotta pia for the next two weeks. no more playing, cos of the tons of homework they gave us, so irritating. >:(

Nothing much happening this past few days, just going out and having trainings twice a day. most boring June holidays ever. miss all my friends. :(

Stop circling round with your words and tell me wat you want. its either i get the hint or i don't. and let me tell you now, i don't get the hint, so just say wat you wna say. don't drag me into this again.

Ah fuck this shit.

New scars.

Shall talk about what happened yesterday first.

Went to Adele's house in the afternoon. well, because i woke up at 12pm. haha. ;P then played all sorts of stuff at her house. playstation2, pool, and Bishi Bashi! my all time favourite! :) but it was a different version so didn't really know the games but still, it was fun. :)) then after which her mum dropped us at Meridien cos i was suppose to meet Grace to play pool there. Cheong came too with some other people. played for like one hour plus before leaving and going to PS to grab a bite. kind of a relaxed day, and fun too. :)

Talked to Noelle at night about personal stuff, had so many things to confide to her. huge stone is off my chest now all thanks to her, :) though problem isn't really resolved yet, and guess she feels the same way that i'm feeling right now. so we had many feelings in common and we blabbed on for about two hours before turning in and having a good night's sleep. :)

About today. :)

Had school training again. always twice a week, on Mondays and Thursdays. quite alright, did almost the same stuff as the prrevious training, and the warm - up totally sucks please. damn tiring, and we being the last group to come in has to do the most. :l nevermind, good warmup. then after that was passes which in the end i had to do like 94 times of push ups, sit ups, dips or wat so ever that i wanted to do. tiring man. :l left for 17s training which we were late. quite alright, just exhausted from the previous training, went to eat with a different bunch, came back to watch games that were going on, and headed home after that.

And now, i'll go find something to eat before i go catch the show 'lost!'! hahahah. :D

To end off today's entry, here's lyrics to this wonderful song. :)

PAPA ROACH -> Scars.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say
I tried
I'm sorry
But I gotta move on with my own life

I don't want to be lonely no more.

Now i know what exactly is the feeling of dying. well, maybe worse than that. :l

Sleep, town, pool, crossword puzzles, eat, netball is what i've been doing for the past few days of the holiday, besides having tuition every now and then. how boring can my life get. nothing much this few days. had dinner with Kahyee at IKEA just now. stupid girl kept stepping on my feet and throwing my wallet around happily. idiot only but i gave her a BIG blueblack so its okay! =P

I'm getting really depressed for no reason. :(

Wo mei you yong qi gao shu ni bie ba wo dang peng you.

i love you.
i hate you.
i envy you.
i depise you.
i hurt you.
i need you.
i poisoned you.
i corrupted you.
i created you.
i destroyed you.
i cherished you.
i hurt you.
i healed you.
i persuaded you.
i let you.
i am you.

I'm swimming in the ocean all alone.

HOME SWEET HOME. :D

Tired out. had a game against SCC. we won. :) score was 47 : 10. good job there people! and i hate my socks i swear! :l keeps getting higher each time i pull it down. haha. next training session on Monday.

Went out before the game. to celebrate Michelle's birthday i guess. haha. oh ya! sorry Mich but here's a very belated greeting :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

not that i forgot your birthday, but keep forgetting to post it. haha. =P she treated us today to lunch, and for pool too! entered the other side of Monstercue! aha all thanks to vicky. :)

Almost done with Maths. having tuition tomorrow. SIANS. :( spoil my whole day. oh wells.